Michelle Bisbee

I would like to share a little history to help you better understand my journey. When I was younger I ended my first pregnancy through abortion.  There were several barriers that made me feel that abortion was my only option. Pregnancy made me very sick and I felt I had no help. Later, I married and we tried to have a child. We lost four babies through natural miscarriages. During this time I lost my mother unexpectedly to unknown causes. My marriage was destroyed by drugs. As our relationship ended I found myself living with a drug dealer and his parents because I had nowhere else to go. 

In July 2013 I found myself far from home, scared, alone, and pregnant.  I was living in an unhealthy and dangerous environment, with the baby’s father, a drug dealer.  On a daily basis I was hurt physically, emotionally, and mentally. I was wrong to think that the abuse would stop once he knew I was expecting his child. I vividly remember being locked in a room for three days without food.  He would lock me up and then return to beat me, accusing me of cheating on him while he was gone.  

To run would be the only way to save myself and this little baby growing inside me. I contacted my dad to help me get out.  My dad felt the urgency and wanted to help. The morning he arrived, I had just put the baby’s father in jail due to an abusive outburst on me and his parents. I still struggle with fear and cry when I remember this past. I now know it was God’s timing that saved me.

When I arrived home, my step-mother shared with me some of the support programs at the local pregnancy center.  I was really blown away at the amazing, free resources that The Open Door provided this small rural area.  

During my ultrasound, I was able to see my baby boy’s heartbeat, and he was waving.  The team was very encouraging and helpful.  This was my first real pregnancy, and I was scared.  They helped me to know what to expect and what to do next. At the center I received resources, support, and the referrals I needed to get help during my pregnancy.  

Around 28 weeks, I started considering adoption for my baby.  I was worried that I would not be able to provide for us. I wanted the best life for him and was afraid that someone else would be more prepared to meet his needs.  I was also very afraid of his father coming after us. 

Jackson was born at 31 weeks via an emergency C-section due to high blood pressure.  He was not breathing at birth and it took 20 minutes before he took his first breath.  He spent a month in NICU.  I did not see Jackson for the first couple of days. During this time, Jackson was literally fighting for his life, and I was an emotional wreck.  I cannot begin to tell you the struggle a birth mother feels when choosing between adoption and parenting. I’m very grateful for the prayers and the care packet The Open Door sent me when I had nothing.

Once I was able to be with him and hold him, I knew I wanted to keep him. But would I be the best for him? I remember crying in the hospital over this when a woman came to me; she had a comforting spirit who helped me to know I could keep him. With the support of my family and the pregnancy center, my confidence that I could be a great mother to Jackson grew.

I voluntarily started a CPS case because of my past, the past abusive relationship, and to prevent future problems.  I wanted help to be a good mother.  CPS helped me get a protective order against Jackson’s father. They were able to close my case quickly since I had been clean and sober and was taking classes at The Open Door. This was encouraging to me that I was on the right track to being a good mother!

I continue to take classes at The Open Door to have a support team to talk to and to meet some of my physical needs.  I also enjoy visiting with the team members! I have taken classes in cooking, pregnancy, preparing for the baby, and parenting.

I love being a mom! I love hearing Jackson laugh every day and breathe throughout the night.

I’m excited to use my life experience not only to help others who are going through challenging times, but also to continue my education to become a Nurse Practitioner. 

I would like to thank The Open Door and those who fight for pregnancy centers. Thank you for everything you helped me with! Thank you for helping so many others needing assistance or guidance through rough times.

Kailee Perrin

           My Mother said, “Kailee, come up to the bathroom with me for a second.” As I went up the stairs with her I thought to myself, what on earth does she want me to come up to the bathroom for? She started to take out a little package and open it. My heart sank and then began to beat like crazy as I figured out what she was doing. “You are going to take this pregnancy test and I am going to sit right here while you do it!” she said. “MOM - REALLY? You don't have to watch me”, I shot back. “Yes I do. I need to make sure you don't run it under the water.” When I was done taking the test we sat together waiting impatiently for the results. I was scared to death. Finally it came up and sure enough, my mother was right. It was positive.

            As I looked at the results tears began to fill my eyes. I had a baby growing inside me. I was in no shape to have or take care of a baby; I couldn't even take care of myself.

           My boyfriend and I had just started dating and moved into an apartment together. He was a drug dealer and we were using and drinking every day. I was 18 years old, addicted, and now pregnant.

  My mom assured me that I was going to be ok and she would be here to support me and help in any way. I spent night after night not knowing what I should do. Should I have an abortion and make this nightmare go away as fast as possible? Should I place the baby for adoption? Should I try to become a mom at 18 years old while battling my addictions to drugs and alcohol? Thought after racing thought ran through my mind as I cried myself to sleep every night alone and afraid.

           My boyfriend decided he wanted to end our relationship. This was all too much for him. He was not ready to change his life and have a baby. I grew up in a home without a dad due to his addictions to methamphetamine. My mother struggled raising me alone and I rebelled in every possible way. Not having a dad in my life caused me to crave male attention and love which leadto me becoming sexually active at the age of 13 and contracting an STD by 15 years old. The last thing I wanted to do was bring a baby into the broken situation I was in. I had absolutely no self-worth and hated who I had become. My biggest fear was repeating the cycle and having a baby become like me: a fatherless mess. My boyfriend decided I should have an abortion and he would give me all the money I needed to pay for it. My Step dad also thought that having an abortion would be the best thing for my life. I thought becoming pregnant was the worst possible thing that could happen to me. With everyone whispering ABORTION in my ears I thought it was my only logical option. Deep down, I wanted this baby. I already loved her and I was so tormented by all the lies of abortion. Lies like I would be doing my baby a favor. This would be the best thing for me so I could go on with my life. I would make a terrible mother. Lie after lie after lie and I was a lost little girl who began to believe them all.

            Finally I had decided what I was going to do and I didnot want to talk about it or discuss it with anyone. I told my mother I was going to go ahead and have an abortion and NOTHING was going to change my mind. I wanted this all to be over and I thought this was the best way to make that happen.

          While at a meeting my Mother was talking about my situation and stated that she didn't want me to make the wrong decision and she did not know how to help me. After the meeting a man came up to her and gave her a piece of paper with a phone number on it and said, “Take your daughter here.”

            She told me she was going to make an appointment at this pregnancy center. I thought Pregnancy Center well they must do abortions so I agreed. I had no clue what a pregnancy center was or what they did.

            Walking through those Center doors that day with my heart pounding out of my chest, I felt alone, ashamed, embarrassed and afraid. They took me into a room where I met with a counselor. She began talking to me and I immediately felt safe and comfortable with her. We talked about my situation and I told her I was going to have an abortion. She went over fetal development with me and I learned for the first time the stages of life after conception. She then went over a brochure of abortion procedures with me. She told me what the physical and emotional risks were. I had no idea all that an abortion entailed. She then started to tell me about her life, and that she had been in a similar situation as me when she was 17. She told me how she kept her baby and surrendered to the Lord and He blessed her life. I was in awe of her story and immediately filled with a glimpse of HOPE. My darkness was beginning to be filled with little rays of light. Hope felt like God had a 

plan for my life and my baby’s. Yes I made a mistake by getting pregnant, but God was creating this life! We then prayed together and I felt a powerful sense of God’s love and protection like I had never felt before.  My counselor then made me an appointment for an ultrasound and got me right in. Seeing my baby for the first time was life changing.  I was 8 weeks along and my baby was moving all around the screen. So full of LIFE! Joy filled my heart as I bonded with her that day.

           I walked out of the Center choosing life and filled with HOPE. I knew I was going to keep my baby no matter if the dad wanted any part. I had a renewed sense of God’s love and began to believe He had a plan for me and my baby.

“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11

            My appointment at the Center that day was a divine appointment made by God. It was truly the first place I had ever seen Christ.

           My Parents decided that I should go to rehab to learn about the severity of drug addiction and alcoholism. They wanted me to be a sober mom and give my baby a better life. In there I began to seek a relationship with Jesus Christ, and He started healing broken pieces from my past. After I got out of rehab my baby’s father contacted me and said he was ready to be a dad. He wanted to be there for me and our baby.  He stopped using hard drugs and selling them and tried to get a real job for the first time in years.

            I had our daughter, Preslee Olivia Perrin, on October 3, 2008, after 24 hours of hard labor. It was the most amazing day of our lives! Holding her for the first time changed our lives forever. Shortly after having our daughter her father proposed to me and we began planning a wedding.

    My Husband's Aunt had come over to see the newest member of the family and spend some time with me. She said she was just getting back from volunteering at a local Pregnancy Center. I couldn’t believe it! It was the same place. I told her I went there. They helped me so much! I made the connection for the first time as I seen her holding my daughter … the connection that if I had never gone to the Center that day my baby would not be alive. That whole night my heart was restless. I knew I needed to write my counselor a letter and thank her for all she had done for me and for being there that day.

            When she received the letter she was delighted and so encouraged. She contacted me shortly after and asked if I would be interested in sharing this story at a few of their annual banquets. I said yes! I then went to lunch with her and the Executive Director, who at the time was Jacque Wagner. When we were at lunch the ladies were talking to me about the banquets. When I asked, how many people would be attending, she said, 400 at the first and about 200 at the second. I almost fainted and fell out of my chair! I had never done any public speaking before, and I had already said yes.

            At lunch that day the executive directly looked me in the eyes and said, “God has laid His hand upon you and has a mighty plan for your life.” It was like God himself was speaking right to me. That was the start of my special relationship with her and the Lord. Who knew a 19 year old and 65 year old could be best friends! She later invited me to bible study and her church. I would attend weekly bible study with her and my counselor from the Center. They began speaking Gods Word into my life and would pray for me constantly. I learned how to be a Godly wife and mother from them. They showed me how to become a woman of God, and mentored me every step of the way. My life was rapidly changing by leaps and bounds, and I knew I was never going to be the same broken, lost girl I once was.

   “He lifted me out of the pit of despair out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.” -Psalm 40:2

            When it was time for the banquet my husband, mother, and new daughter attended. The first person my mother saw was the man that handed her the piece of paper at the meeting over a year before.  She had not seen him since that day. He had no idea the outcome of my pregnancy, and that it was because his act of faith by giving her the pregnancy center number that I was there speaking and sharing my story. His table was right next to ours. This changed and encouraged his life as well! God had performed another miracle by connecting the dots! It just goes to show how His hand is at work saving lives at pregnancy centers!

           Today I am so very thankful for the work of crisis pregnancy centers. If I had not gone to the center that day I can honestly say I would not be alive. God not only saved my daughter’s life, but my husbands and mine as well.

           My daughter is now 6 years old. She is just finishing 1^st grade. She loves learning new things and getting 100s on her tests at school! She is a dancer and a softball player. Her love for Jesus at 6 years old is contagious!

            My husband and I have 5 years of marriage and we have two more children. Our family has grown to a family of five. Our three year old boy melts my heart with his acts of love and kindness every day. At three he has a willingness to pray for those who need prayer. And we welcomed a new baby girl into the world on 9/11/2014. Her name is Reya Grace. She has filled our home with so much love and joy! My husband and I have given our lives and hearts to Jesus and look forward to the plans He has for us and our family. And today, I get the amazing opportunity to share at our local churches the hope that the pregnancy center gave me that day.

           It is my heart’s desire that all women facing an unplanned pregnancy choose life despite their current situations and circumstances. That they would know that no matter what they have done or 

where they are the God of the universe delights in them and longs to make their story beautiful.

           “To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness, That they may be called trees of righteousness. The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” -Isaiah 61:3

            It is also my hope to encourage Pregnancy Center workers and those who work or volunteer in the pro-life mission field. That their seeds of hope are being planted and God will continue to transform lives through their hard work and dedication.

Babies Go to Congress 2016

Kailee and Preslee

Michelle and Jackson

Teka and Tailor

Jessica and Oliver and Milo

April and Allyson

Silent Voices Uganda

Silent voices Uganda is an interdenominational organization which was founded in 2009 registered as community based organization in 2012 having found out that there were rampant cases of abortion especially among school girls and young women leading to death of babies and their mothers as a result of abortion.

Although the clergy, Christians and the community condemn it there was no effort put to actively sensitize society and institutions about the dangers, physical complications of abortion and its long term effects and in addition train these girls in skills for self-reliance and sustainable livelihood.

So our VISION is promoting openness, tolerance, forgiveness, reconciliation as a means of protecting life and sustainable development.

Our MISSION is carrying out sensitization on abortion, reconciliation, mobilization and skills acquisition on to common action plan of development.

Client Testimony

 Silent voices Uganda since its inception has sensitized over 3,000 school girls and boys in schools such as Halycon High School, Jeressah High School, Bethany Girls senior Secondary School, Cross roads Soroti Senior Secondary School, Light Secondary School, Manafa Secondary School Pioneer Primary School, Aminit Vocational Institute. We have reached 120 young mothers with social material support such as clothing, soap. Out of family resources and since we started this vision in 2009, we have now registered young single mothers who have been a abandoned by the boys who impregnated them and then they run away, leaving them with no help and this group is over 3,000 young mothers in the districts where silent voices operates from.

Silent voices Uganda carries out pregnancy tests in schools when girls return after voices and many of them who are found testing positive in pregnancy are encouraged to keep the pregnancy and then return to school after delivery which has been successful.

Silent voices helped 3 girls to return to school and two of them have finished courses in teaching and Midwifery. It’s upon these that we request for your support in terms of finances, training and pregnancy facility development. We will greatly appreciate your support in any way which is possible to you.

Activate Your Church to Save Lives

Called into existence by the Christ-centered pregnancy help movement, Heartbeat International has been serving women in unexpected pregnancies since 1971.

As the go-to resource for local pregnancy centers, ultrasound-equipped medical clinics, maternity homes, nonprofit adoption agencies, and more, Heartbeat International also answers more than 1,000 cries for help each day through our 24/7 pregnancy helpline, Option Line, connecting callers to life-saving help near them.

The very best alternative to abortion is another person. That’s why Heartbeat International strives to equip, encourage, and champion grassroots efforts to reach and rescue as many lives as possible around the world through an effective network of life-affirming pregnancy help to renew communities for LIFE.

Christians and local churches have always been the engine behind the life-saving pregnancy help movement, and it is our hope to continue to connect believers of all denominations to the resources they need to make a difference in their own communities.

(Note: While Heartbeat International does not endorse political candidates, we do encourage responsible citizenship and stewardship of such decisions. Please visit ivoterguide.com to learn more.)

Call a Center 2,800 life-affirming pregnancy centers in the U.S. need Gospel-minded partners like you. Call your nearest center and ask how your church can help. Find a center near you!	Mobilize a Mission From giving and partnering in fundraising, to mentoring moms and dads, to serving on the leadership team, mobilize your church to save lives in your town. 9 Things you should know about pregnancy help orgs	Spread a Vision Men and women all around us are affected by surprise pregnancies and abortion. Assure others of God’s love for every life and the death-defying forgiveness found at the Cross. Download 10 things you can say and do to make abortion unwanted today!	Build a Bridge Work hand-in-hand with other life- affirming churches and groups around you to rescue women and families from the deadly cross-hairs of abortion. Connect with Heartbeat's Life-Saving Mission.

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